First of all, my name isn't Shane. I am not from Nova Scotia, though I do have a female relative that moved there about five or six years ago, though I suspect that she has been trying to give you a false impression with regard to my real identity as well.
For instance, I am not a guitar player and have never owned a guitar, but strangely enough she began sending me birthday cards with guitars on them about ten years ago, and that wasn't the first sign that I was being "erased" from my own life and history. Even by relatives, and no, none of us have Capgras Syndrome. Some people do crazy things to other people as a means to gas light them, and whe those victimized cite what they're experiencing, it often resembles the symptoms of a mental illness, which is often used to discredit them. I neither use narcotics, nor am I mentally ill. I drink occasionally, but certainly not every day.
My content on Shhhh! Digital Media isn't produced at a homeless shelter at all, and I am the only content producer, and the entire force behind Shhhh! Digital Media, including all of the stories and writing that started as far back as 1979, at 30 Lisburn Cresent in Toronto, Ontario, Canada. I am not biracial African or Caribbean, nor am I African or Caribbean at all, and I don't think that its either a hate crime or hate speech clarifying that fact, especially when its legally the truth. I once upon a time, more than a decade ago and during a difficult time, had to reside in a homeless shelter and did do some writing even that far back, but I moved into my home office in April of 2012, and I always worked alone when it came to writing, though I did collaborate with a coder named Dan for a C++ project where I acted as a consultant for his use of OpenGL (Open Graphics Library). We generally stuck with OpenGL 2 features as the implementation of the glut and glaux libraries he was using were capped at that version. The project was mostly for 2D work, for a job he worked designing a timetable for a hotel broadcast schedule.
As I stated, there are people who are trying to make it seem that all of the Shhhh! Digital Media content originated from someone else, or a couple of somebodies, all of whom have nothing to do with it at all. I'd hate to think that one or more of my own relatives is in on this, because that would not be good at all. These however a people who are part of a cult where if you express bits and pieces of your past and they believe that you have never experienced those things, they'll accuse you of taking them from someone else's life, whether they know that fact about you or not.
Like horseback riding. I have a relative with a ranch, and yet I've never been horseback riding with her. Ever. And yet I've ridden over fifty or sixty hours in my life from the time I was eighteen onward, which isn't bad for a guy without access to a ranch, not to mention I've trained in dangerous terrain riding and horse care as well. Yet, if I write a story that includes horseback riding, I'm assaulted by a crazy cult of neighbours and online community who believe that my experiences are not mine and that they're stolen from someone else's life, hence such a cult tries to force me to pay them for sponsorship from one of their members, who allegedly has ridden horses in their life. Usually in my experience and after investigating, that person turns out to be a fraud, while I've really done it. Same with martial arts. Same with being a piano player and composer. Same with being a programmer.
In the case of almost every person this cult has made me pay sponsorship to one of their members, that person turns out to be a fraud, while my training or life experience is real and truthful. Same with my relationships. The membership of this stalking cult freaks out when I write a story with a guy that looks a bit similar to me when I was younger, having a relationship with a Japanese woman, and then accuse me of trying to steal John Penny's history (an old friend of mine), or Tom Cruise's history and meanwhile, I dated a Japanese waitress near the end of 2002 and into 2003. My last girlfriend is Korean. Before that, I was in a serious relationship with a wonderful Chinese woman, who was one of the biggest inspirations behind what you've read here on Shhhh! Digital Media. There's bits and pieces of all of those women in there, and I am not paying sponsorship to anybody, especially when the people running this cult are basically nothing but frauds. Even if they weren't, I would be more likely to give them a harsh word than anything towards their sponsorship of me paying them something (the law states that demanding any kind of unsolicited payment from a person, whether it be for sponsorship or any other reason, is criminal extortion).
I hate having to make posts like this, but they're necessary given the amount of time and effort this abusive cult are putting into their efforts to harass me, and I can only hope that they aren't harassing my readers (the ones who aren't part of their abusive ideology). I don't really go by the name of an ideology, but more by what they do. So I don't really want to name names, because the same cult also does this in order to trick you into making as many enemies out of others as possible.
Art and creation can exist by itself, and there are many great artists and creators out there who are largely unexplored, and probably in heaven as a result of it and they don't even realize it.
The most creative part about anything of that nature has a few different aspects, that lie between the artist and the audience. Any sensation cannot happen without an audience and their time and contemplation of any created medium, and that in itself inspires a whole creativity on its own. Reading a poem is no different than looking at a painting is not different than discerning shapes in a red evening's sky full of clouds. The art itself speaks of experience in some way, and most people who check it out, if the artist finds their audience, will find some insight and life experience there within. Some of it familiar, but not too familiar. Enough to keep one curious and inspired, and when that reaches a critical mass amongst many people, that creates fanfare and popularity.
The goal of every content creator for their work to resonate with a large number of people, and hopefully enough so that they might be able to earn a living at it, and maybe even live comfortably. Most of us do this regardless of the money, so its nice that after years (decades) of struggling, that it all comes together, and that is absolutely not possible with an audience. I am always grateful for that aspect of Shhhh! Digital Media, but in order to be sure not to inflate your heads and egos too much, I should tell you that even if you weren't here, I'd still be doing it. It would exist without you, but it became so much more than it otherwise could have been, with you. The unabusive and unobtrusive reader. Probably most of you have your own creative gigs as well, or working a gig being creative in your own way. We're probably more alike than you know, but also probably far too different to ever get along for more than ten minutes.
So distinguishing the fact from the falsehood about this is very important. I don't believe in life being a masquerade. I believe there are some very narcissistic people out there, for whom the concept of creativity and individuality means nothing. If they can jump into someone's body, and see through their eyes and hear through their ears, they honestly believe they might as well be called that person, and yes, there are people who do exactly that, and who believe they're justified in wearing the credit for what other people do. Kind of like being a stowaway in the passenger seat of a car, and telling everyone you're the driver. I even tried to illustrate the difference between that concept (a very narcissistic perspective had some people who truly believe that the rest of us are just empty shells without a mind until they come into our life).
The dichotomy that I wanted to use to express that idea while exposing it entirely, is the dichotomy of what happens in Era of the Spellbound, with the characters Gillie and Gwendolyn and Glynis and Gallea after the events of A Lady's Prerogative III: Unfinished Bee's Wax. Gwendolyn and Gallea are almost the diametrical opposite of what true narcissism is, and in both cases, their presence as stowaways in the body of another person is to improve the quality of their life. To the narcissist, the person they're wearing is just a reflection of them, because they're so ultimately full of themselves in the sense that they believe nobody else exists, and most often are incapable of empathizing the struggle and pain of others, and relating it with their own. The signs of a person without a conscience, whose only motivation in life is to make sure that nobody ever figures that out. When they're in danger of that happening, they'll dance. I don't mean the artistic, show stopping kind. I mean, they do something quickly to contradict anything that might reveal the truth of their lack of a conscience, rather than doing something that lifts others, and waking up every day after every shit kicking they're taken by narcissists, to do it all again. Lift others, while bitterly doing battle with harassing narcissists whose goal in life quite simply, is to not get found out.
After every shit kicking I've taken in life, I've always gotten back up the next day to get back in there and essentially, lift other people up, and for the most part, I haven't really asked for much in doing it, if anything at all.
Its important for me to clarify this stuff, but not so my name is burnt onto the retinas of everyone with a computer monitor where the brightness is cranked, but because its all I've got, and there's bits and pieces of people I care about in there, and they're worth every bit of effort I put into making that clear.
Thank you for your time.
Brian Joseph Johns
Had a great time coding in Delphi today. Very glad to hear about the new plans revealed at State of Unreal. There's a lot of good stuff happening, and as long as there is, most of us will get up from every shit kicking and keep going.
