What's Behind My Decision To Put Content On Hold?

As most of you know, regardless of the fact that this is very trivial given the state of other much more important affairs in the world concerning the lives of hundreds of thousands if not millions of people struggling to survive, there have been issues with my company and identity being under attack for many years and that pressure has been cumulative over that time and continues to grow.

Much of that effort has been focused around the denial of my original identity, even by members of my own family, who've attempted to associate my history as having been one of a guitar player. In fact, my own mother for the last ten years has been sending me birthday cards, occasionally with guitars and this is not the result of any impediment of her memory or difficulties arising from the accumulation of years. This is part of a larger collective effort by a group to literally transfer my own life history away from me and to give it to someone else.

I believe that there are large powers, some of them criminal, currently playing with people's history in that way, along with such persons who are subject to this being used as sort of criminal substitutes, carriers for the activities of other people.

Now I understand that in life, we sometimes find ourselves in crises that take us in way over our head, and that sometimes people need a hand. Sometimes that can come in the form of relief from a friend or someone trusted, who helps you to shoulder weight in that way. That was the way that we used to do things before this more socially toxic version of the world arrived sometime after 2007 from my perspective.

The weight we carry, for others and for ourselves connects us to other people, the ones for whom we carry this weight, and to ourselves, essentially as a proof of responsibility to some that allows us to claim to be who we are. If you lose either, the things you carry for others, and the things that you carry for yourself, you lose those others for whom you're carrying that weight, and you lose yourself. Your own identity according to a new fangled brand of cult on the block, or perhaps one that has been there the entire time, only opening its predatory jaws recently as a show of power and intimidation.

What you carry for others has influence upon them and vice versa. It connects you to them and the heavier that weight, the stronger that connection. They get little clues about your situation and life struggles by way of meaningful coincidences if they're paying attention, and so do you about them. If you're carrying weight for people of wealth and power, the same thing applies, and relevance of some things they experience is and can be focused upon issues close to you again by way of meaningful coincidences, and vice versa. 

Generally, energetic people of a high creativity level often, but not always, find themselves connected to the same in this way, though as I'll explain below, this can sometimes be used in a dualistic manner to claim credit over the works of one person and give them to another, though I'll argue that is simply a new weapon in the hands of those seeking to exploit such connections to their own advantage for the purposes of theft and to divide people, especially those who've a long history of family or friendship that isn't directly by way of relation. To divide people and pit them against one another, is to conquer them and allows for the next step in taking over. A life? A family? A tight knit clique? A community? An entire generation? A city? A country? Perhaps the entire world.

Your connection to your own history. Your life and past, depends upon many other factors in order to be maintained. It requires some kind of a record, usually in the form of documents kept by the Government and the governing body of the health care facility in which you were born. Records of your weight at birth. Your footprints for identification if anything should befall you, and other records linked to your identity in the sense of official documentation, that is a factor when and if your rights are under attack, especially those linked to your right to identity, which is connected to your right to life.

Then there are people in your life, your family and friends who were there during all of those moments, those who can account for you being you and will backup your claims to your own life and history, without the assistance of official or unofficial records. Now considering that your bound to all of these people by way of the weight that you might carry for them and they for you, if one of you were to break about their weight, it might put pressure upon them to break about yours. Fair enough. I've always regarded this as frivolous anyway, because the reason that I'd care about someone has nothing to do with their ability to carry my weight, but not everyone in your life might agree with that statement. For some, the dropping of that weight is and can be the ultimate betrayal. Enough so to divide you. Allowing for some who might have been seeking a means to exploit such a weakness for a long time to conquer them and allows for the next step in taking over. A life? A family? A tight knit clique? A community? An entire generation? A city? A country? Perhaps the entire world.

If these people are so instrumental in the recollection of your past, and they're suddenly pit against you and perhaps you against them, then who is there to help you protect your past, when someone else, perhaps one person, or a malicious group, is trying to replace it with someone else's and trying to take yours away? Maybe you've achieved something of value that might be worth money or notoriety? Maybe you've done something in life that had an impact upon others. Regardless, someone or a group of organized someones has decided that you are no longer in possession of your own life and history, and someone else is, meaning that the void in your history has to be replaced by someone else's.

There are also cults who believe that the body is just a vessel, guided by the determinacy of an occupying soul or consciousness, and that the vessel is not the true indicator of one's own self, that its this occupying soul, and that soul can at times be replaced by that of someone else. Like a car-jacker, who steals someone's car, takes it for a joy ride and then ditches it somewhere under an overpass, running for their life to escape the authorities.

So in a sense, there are and could be some people in cults who seek to reconcile this concept of identity as being the defining factor of who a person is and who is responsible for their thoughts, words and actions (notice the three pillars?)

Also, a person and their identity to some, is defined by that for which they take responsibility. Remember earlier, I stated that what connects us to the people we know, and our own history is the weight we carry for either. If we don't carry the weight of the people we know, or the people with whom we share something in common, we lost them and they lose us and possibly in a catastrophic manner pitting the two against one another. There are certainly many forces in the world right now exploiting that weakness in our armour in a very organized manner. Just this very past night, many ships as such found the bottom of the ocean, having lost the mutual protection of their allies in a world divided.

Our own weight then, to some people, is our connection to our identity and who we are. If we don't carry it according to such fellows, we lose it and often to someone else who can carry it better than did we. Now, if you're carrying the weight of something heavy for someone else, then doesn't it seem right that you should also get the benefit of their good of equal value? That as long as you own the burdensome thing about them, you get to wear the good thing about them as if it were your own.

That is the center of this issue. An economy designed to motivate people to purposefully make our weight heavier than we can carry, so we drop it, and it is then picked up by someone else, who then for the price of carrying it, gets the credit for something of equal value.

In other words its a sham. A scam. This is the first factor affecting life in society right now, and certainly one of the factors in my fight to retain ownership of my identity and content against the pressure of this scam.

Now to some, the ones I stated earlier who subscribe to this idea of our body being a vessel and our soul or consciousness being a (temporary?) occupant, there amidst those who believe this, are some who have taken this a step further. They claim that this soul or consciousness can be temporarily delegated to the passenger seat while someone else drives the vessel, either against their will or consensually in some manner.

When a person has achieved something of value, and value in this case can work both ways. Something of great worth or importance, socially or financially, or something of great despondency or malice, socially or financially, an impetus is created by others who seek to audit the responsibilities involved connected to the potential that the vessel who achieved these ends, might not have been (temporarily) occupied by an outside soul or consciousness. And so, a socially competitive game is set underway that seeks to reproduce the possibility that something of that nature is or did happen, in order to justify giving the credit (or blame) to the occupying soul or consciousness and taking it away from the person whose vessel from which it was executed.

Another scam, though I myself do believe that our consciousness is temporarily manifested through our vessel until we pass away, at which time we find out that our body was more like a permanent Quantum antenna that only our soul or consciousness is in complete control, but that there are vulnerabilities that arise from the chemistry and physics at work in our nervous system, allowing for some to give the illusion of possession, but in fact all that is happening is that our hormone production is being knowingly altered from the outside, rending us susceptible to anxiety or anger or even fight or flight syndrome, meaning that some of us who are sensitive to such biohacking for lack of a better word, are open to attack by these scammers who use these methods. After all, like all snake oil salesmen, the scammers only need to trick people into believing that their assertion is the case without passing any scrutiny of a scientific manner. They just have to trick people who are gullible and unknowledgeable enough to believe it. Many of them often superstituous.

Now we have two justifications that scammers can effectively employ to justify taking over the credit for the intellectual and creative property of other people, along with the bits and pieces of their life of value that either are of equal value to the weight the scammers take from their victim, or in accordance with the deceit the scammers use to trick others into believing that a person is possessed by someone else, enough so that person whose soul or consciousness is should receive the credit and good karma for their effort.

Where does all the incentive for the pursuit of such an effort lie? In the reward, of taking over someone else's efforts from them, and without having had to make any effort themselves, suddenly be the new owner of that effort.

Convincing other people that a person is not themselves for a period of time, by provoking some behaviour from them that seems to be very much unlike them. Behavious that could scientifically speaking be easily explained away as the result of artificially altered hormone production and then some form of intimidating stimulus that pushed them over the edge towards such behaviour. Those who then witness the reaction of the victim are convinced that they are no longer themselves or under the influence of someone or something else. I believe that behaviour scientists would regard this as a form of systematic radicalization if they had test active subjects experiencing these circumstances without the knowledge of those perpetrating them.

As far as the weight we carry for others goes? Well any weight can be artifically inflated in terms of its burden. If for instance, a predatory group, ie a malicious group of people organized by ideology or some other collective association, had information pertaining to such weight, that maybe they'd ascertained by way of eliciting random stimulus and watching for reactions, ever increasing and narrowing down their knowledge of that weight, or perhaps by someone telling them. Regardless, they use that information in harassment against the person carrying that weight, and that harassment comes not from one person, but many. The weight therefore is purposefully made heavy. Far heavier than its actual value when compared to something else that would be paid to someone who carried that weight in their stead. Another scam. A scam where the people seeking to take the good of a person, increase the value to which they're rewarded by increasing the weight of the burden. This applies both to the original person carrying that weight, who then is more likely to drop it. And then to the person taking over that weight, by the value of the good thing they get paid by the person from whom they're taking it over. Another scam.

Very convoluted, but very effectively being used to socially undermine the lives of many people in society right now I'd wager.

Now, what if at some point along the way, a relative or friend decides that they're on the other team. The team trying to take all of these elements from a person's life? Maybe they're someone very close to that person. A relative perhaps? Someone so close that if the victim spoke out against them, that too would be proof that they are no longer themselves. I mean, who would speak out against their own mother but a horrible person? Perhaps a peron possessed by the enemies of their mother?

If a person isn't in control of their own life and faculties, then who is in control of their efforts? How does this affect their credibility? Who would believe them when they attempt to explain the situation even in great detail that these are all factors involved in a large effort to take away something from them that does not belong to those attempting to take it?

For people close to such a person who'd jumped to (one of) the other team(s), these means would give them an overwhelming advantage, especially if the team involved in such an effort has resources or experience in conducting such efforts to others in society. I'd be willing to bet that there have been many, and I myself have even found trails of evidence to other people who fell victim to the same thing by the very same, or related branch of this cult achieving these ends.

So here I am, having been labeled as a guitar player (which I'm not), and having been denied of my own identity, at the doorstep of a fight to prevent my content from being taken from me along with my own identity and existence by a group of people who are essentially siphoning everything I say and do, and detouring it to the credit of other people, based upon any justification they can come up with. Not just the few examples I've gone to great effort to explain. Once again, I'm not doing this for myself alone, but for others who have most certainly fallen victim to the same thing.

Another point I should mention and that's about forging fake associations with people the victim has nothing to do. Remember how I said that a person carries weight for those they are close? Family and close friends? Well there is a third group, and this group are very dispicable. They're the group that seeks association with their victim for some reason, by forcing them unknowingly to carry the weight of them or their friends, in order to create a bias in their favour, and often unwilling in order to break or overtake another bias the victim has for someone else. In a sense, this is a form of trafficking. To by way of the imbument of a forced burden upon a person, make appear a person's bias in a direction that it simply does not apply, and most often this is done to break people away from one cultural group and force them over to the association of another. In other words, racism. Like the group trying to split me away from Southeast Asian cultural bias given my following of two aspects of their philosophical history in the form of Buddhism and Taoism, while forcing me in another direction, perhaps as a reward to a member of religious paritioners by making me carry weight according to their racial group and religious membership to make me beholden to them. Keep in mind that sextortion can and has been used in this manner by such groups before. Before I continue, I should let you know that I'm not a member of Christianity at all by the way. A statement which could further be used by others to claim that I am not myself or that I am possessed by someone else.

The last point I should make, is that remember I said when we carry weight for others, we get clues about their life by way of meaningful coincidences. Clues about their current life, not their past generally speaking, issues that are on the forefront of their existential experience, are somehow distributed down the pipeline connecting the two people, and they each experience meaningful coincidences related to each others' lives. Some of them artificially and knowingly manufactured. Some of them defacto connections, that have been strengthened by the weight they each experience in carrying that burden.

Those meaningful coincidences give those people clues about the lives of the person at the other end, and historically speaking, some secret societies have even used these means for measuring and evaluating the merit and issues of a person. The predatory groups I've mentioned have even figured out a way to hack this effect, by sneaking aspects of their lives or those of their allies, onto one of the people on either end of these connections undetected, so that two person on the other end gets clues about someone else completely different from the person whose weight they're carrying, but stands to believe that meaningful coincidence as having originated from that person. Its like sneaking garbage into the neighbours' garbage bins. 

The garbage collector finds garbage not belonging to the household from which they're picking it up, and believes things about that household that simply do not apply. The community where I live, though certainly having many civil people, is also rampant with this other activity of dumping. Many of them in knowing my association with Southeast Asian culture have often sought to dump their garbage down the line to them, perhaps as a means of disconnection and they keep close enough eye on me to know who and when I have new connection to someone. Even when those people are celebrities or in the public eye. These are the people whose weight this cult want to take from me, because these people have money, influence and power. This also motivates their effort to make it seem that my writing originates from someone else. Hence why they spend so much time and effort har assing me and I then spend time posting exposé rants of this nature, though this one is very effectively productive.

 All of these factors thus far come together to create a constant battle that I and many others likely fight every day. The central place where this seems to be occurring from or through, is a homeless shelter of all things, though it seems as if there's an interconnected group who systematically target people in difficult or trying circumstances financially to these ends, though they have other allies at various levels of society and of various levels of cuth with regard to how they'll use the resources at their disposal to such ends as stealing a person's identity, history and the credit for their effort using any of these justifications. Throw into the fold that maybe a couple of people close have been a part of this predatory team the whole time, and you've got a very difficult situation, especially when they are under the impression that there is some kind of wealth or power to be taken, but in fact I'm a struggling business owner, writer and artist of various mediums trying to grow his brand under the force of his own effort and with the help of his allies and modern tools.

Every day I believe that I'm getting closer to that dream, that's the apple that keeps my horse and I going. Most people see prosperity eventually for the right effort. I don't believe that I'm making the wrong effort. I believe that I've been targeted by a predatory group using the justifications above to take my work from me, and by a group trying to convince you that I do not have my own mind, and that my mind is simply a congruence of things I've seen online, by way of videos on YouTube or situations on the news, and that the persecution I experience isn't real, but a reflection of what's happening to other people elsewhere. Like I'm a thermometer. That of course is another illusion perpetrated by a cult, who in order to keep that illusion in place, and perhaps to hide their predatory nature, make such an insinuation to hide their activity and numbers and how organized they are.

An attempt to make me more negative rather than positive, so that when I write exposé rants about them, it seems that I'm a negative minded person, seeing only the negative in life, which is inevitably then used to prop someone else up as the positive side. Meanwhile the people who conducted the abuse to get that sort of a reaction from me were hostile and negative themselves.

There are also people who believe that if I rant like this, and that others read it, that my soul will permeate other people and that if they carry the weight for these rants, that they are me, hence getting the reward for my effort while I get pschologically tortured by an abusive group.

A person can only go so long, working on a labour of love before they have to look to other avenues to grow their own prosperity. The only exception I'd grant is something like a committment of a committed relationship and marriage, where you really should have the love to stick with it until the end. When it comes to this, I won't ever give up, but I'm definitely not going to allow this current dynamic to go on any longer.

Unfortunately, there are many abusive ideologies for whom this is their daily conduct in life and when you live close to a number of them and they're particularly aggressive, that can make getting ahead honestly very difficult.

I know that this must seem trivial compared to the utter level of suffering that others in the world are experiencing, but I'd be willing to bet that much of what I've revealed here can be used to systempatically protect society against the bullies and predatory groups using these methods in trying to undermine it and most likely, to conquer it. I hope that in understanding what I've explained here, that it might help society in some way and alleviate some of the pressure others might be experiencing from the same thing. When a large group of people have no avenue to express injustice to which they're being subject, when a person speaks up and is heard, it relieves that pressure for all. Those who feared speaking up. Those who didn't have the medium through which to speak. Those who didn't know how to effectively describe it.

Regardless, I am not on the blue team or brown team at all. The blue team colour symbolism would be used to reverse the context of my expression in such a way that would actually be praising and benefit the perpetrators of this activity, so no way am I going near blue today at all. Blue water maybe. Blue work possibly. Blue business possibly. But no hate means love and love means hate, or identity switching or lie or anything of that nature, and no Kybalion either.

I'll stick with my Shhhh! Digital Media colours for the time being of red black, red white, red yellow and grey, and scientifically speaking, nobody has black skin, nobody has white skin and no two people have the same colour of skin. We're all uniquely pigmented, but we alone choose the flock we run with, and the bias of our affecetion and love. There is no quota for that and never should be outside of workplaces that ensure equal hiring practices, but never in personal life and never in terms of which consultants or contractors a person or company hires for a particular project. On a personal level for all, bias is our most profound form of expression and that's why its the foundation of love and consequently why the context of expression should never be reversed.

You can't make anyone love you, and therefore love is freedom. Its a lot easier to make someone hate you, and if you polarity reverse the two, you've broken freedom. Some people regard both love and hate as bias, but as long as you preserve the true polarity, that will never be the case because hate is as far away from bias as one can possibly get, when love is as close to bias as one can possibly be.

I won't be producing any new content, including audiobooks until this activity ceases, and if it doesn't then my efforts will be focused on taking it down tactfully and legally.

Have a good weekend and you'll be the first to know (barring the cult that spy on me) when and if I publish something new.

Until next time :-)

I'm not mentally ill by the way (a scapegoat this cult would use for certain) and I wouldn't want to stigmatize a real life issue that many people live with on a daily basis in a healthy and happy manner. I don't use, buy or sell narcotics at all, but there's harm reduction and rehab for those who do. I do drink alcoholic beverages, but very seldom, but I always drink alone and usually with a good meal, as I really love to cook. Like most real men, all the men in my family cook.

I'm not transgender and nor is my love interest, but I support LGBTQ2 rights. I'm European Canadian and have no other ethnic cultures within, though I'm certainly not a member of any blood centric religion or ideology with all due respect. I am not in jail and have never been incarcerated jail or prison in my life, though everyone does their own time and not someone else's. You might have heard the name Terence in reference to things related to my person or Shhhh! Digital Media, but I can assure you that I am not he, and that there is no such person by that name associated with Shhhh! Digital Media (yet?). 

Years ago when I was actively a student of Aikido, there used to be some of the cult members who lives in the same residential building as my home office, who'd stalk me with his friends when I was on my way to Aikido. He'd follow me to the dojo, with two or three people, harassing me the entire way, and then an hour and a half later when class was finished, he'd follow me back to the building, harassing me once again. He claimed to have a blue belt in karate (I've studied Goju Jujitsu-Ryu myself), but after some checking I found out he had no training, and that for him the colour blue simply was symbolized to mean liar or lying. I believe that this cult tried to stick his identity to mine, so that people assumed me to be some kind of fake when it came to writing stories like Butterfly Dragon and then justified labeling me as a fake master, though in real life, I've never claimed such an acredation myself. An example of how these predatory groups can weaponize their own identity and history and stick them to you, and have them spread to others who then assume the same thing about you and your history. That comes back to you in many ways from your own circle and can be very disheartening.

The situation with Terence was echoed three other times in the same area, where I've been attacked from behind no less than three times, every time, outnumbered and managing to avert the situation and violence without standing down on my values or giving the impression that it is alright to do such a thing to someone. So these issues, especially the ones related to my formal experience and this Terence person really have left scars in some ways. 

I'm not Turkish with all due respect, and I don't work as a security guard and never have. If I did, I'd wear red coveralls and a beret and drive a large organic insectoid space ship.

I'm not a Jehovah's Witness for example or a Scientologist with all due respect. I'm not a member of Prince Hall either with all due respect. 

My own love interest is Southeast Asian (though not Filipino).

I am simply an Atheist that leans toward Buddhism and Taoism.

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