Monday, May 21, 2018

One Last Thing...

I am certainly not a member of any ideology that believes that you are whose secrets you keep. I think that whole idea is nonsense. You are who you are regardless of what you express and what you don't. You are who you are regardless of how much of other people's expression you experience or not. The only thing that can change yourself is time and experience and what you learn from them. We learn from other people but we don't become them by learning from them. They do live on in us through what we learn from them and maybe that is the only real immortality. The impact that you have upon the world and others.

So I've stood my ground for years on the same matter, but with regard to a Mandarin Chinese lady being my love interest. I'm not possessed or being controlled by someone else who feels the same or a similar way that I do. I sincerely feel that way about her. So I am not Terence, Clarence or Jake or anyone else. I'm not Ron Silk, John Penny or Ian. I'm not John Cane. I am not Dwayne Johnson (The Rock). I'm myself, Brian Joseph Johns. My love interest is not Filipino with all due respect to that wonderful culture of people. I've never been married in my life nor had any children just to clarify things. I also think that there is absolutely nothing wrong with any mixed culture relationships whatsoever of any gender and I support marriage between any two adults as well.

Brian Joseph Johns
http://www.shhhhdigital.com

200 Sherbourne Street Apt. 701
Toronto, Ontario
Canada M5A 3Z5
416 203-0928
fav.inbox@gmail.com

Saturday, May 19, 2018

My First Publishing...

Brian Joseph Johns
Hello once again. Happy Victoria day to everyone who is celebrating it this long weekend.

I thought I'd make this simple post to link back to the site where I'd started my online endeavors so far as this website is concerned.

For me this all started in 2012 when I created my Poetry, Fiction, Graphics, Software and Music blog (http://poetryandfiction.blogspot.ca). I'd completed a number of creations over time where I'd wanted to publish them beginning some time in May of 2012. Since then I've expanded and honed it all eventually becoming this one site: http://www.shhhhdigital.com. Though I haven't been writing for some time I plan on continuing once I've dealt with a few issues that need legal resolving and perhaps a bit of exposure to the wonders of daylight.

Don't worry though, It's not like I'm a bank robber, murderer, outlaw motorcycle gang member or a member of traditional organized crime, or anyone profiting from illegal or even gray enterprises of that measure and in fact it wouldn't be fair to say that I'm even on that side of the fence, though I do my best not to let cliché and stigma govern my assessment of the quality, character and goodness in a person.

All of that despite the fact that I did work for Animation Group Ltd as a programmer, which was eventually replaced by Ferretina Film Productions Ltd from 2001 until 2004, which according to some allegations was funded at least partially by the proceeds of the Lufthansa heist at John F. Kennedy International Airport, for which some of the perpetrators of that real life crime were the inspiration of the Martin Scorsese film Goodfellas.

Apparently these fellows had connections to the Gambino and Bonanno crime families of New York though I would certainly ask that you do not let that fact sway your opinion of anyone based upon their name, or the city in which they live. Think of the people who share those names, maybe even of those families who did not take part in or even have knowledge of any criminal activity. I bet they're subject to a lot of abuse by association and damaged by stigma. After all, that would be gross generalization and certainly that is one of the most dangerous polarizers of people that exist in society today. Guilt by association. Just living in the same place or sharing the same family name as someone else can sometimes result in your unfair treatment in society where you unjustly share the responsibility for the activities of others. So this paragraph is stated with all due respect to those who share the same name or live in the same city that do not take part in organized criminal activities.

Keep in mind that some of these allegations result from many years of investigation on the part of the authorities and on my part as well, seeing as this impacted my life detrimentally and greatly and still does to this day. It has been an ongoing puzzle in my life since 2001 that has certainly affected how I've been treated in my own home city of Toronto, Ontario, Canada. In fact, in Toronto it would seem that many people who knew of this had taken part in attempting to steal my identity away from me or even erase me from existence (and I don't mean in a Marvel Infinity War/Thanos way of doing so). Consider it more like a collective group of people in society treating you as if you don't exist and then looting everything that you produce for their own credit. Many of them refer to someone like myself as being a "ghost" for whatever motives or reasons. Most likely just guilt by association having worked for the company which allegedly was partly funded by the proceeds of the Lufthansa heist.

From 2004 until 2012 I was actually homeless as a result of this whole affair and even that fact was subject to erasure from my own history while said group of people tried to replace my history with that of others of a more criminal nature. In other words they tried to take my own history for one of their members and to replace it with one of their histories, so that insofar as society was concerned, I was a completely different person from the person as which I'd been born despite the fact that I am neither Irish nor Italian. I believe that my ancestry is actually Welsh, Spanish, French and Cree, not that people should be judged by their culture or ethnicity. Once again in doing so we would have another dangerous polarizer of people.

In 2003, I'd even contacted the Federal Police (on both sides of our Canadian and American borders) with regard to an unrelated issue for at that time, I'd had little idea of the nature of what was going on or the association with the Lufthansa heist. Since that time I'd kept in regular contact with the Federal authorities, never asking for so much as a cent. Of course even that aspect of my identity was up for grabs by the local identity thieves, some of whom operated from within the homeless shelter system itself, working with other clients to achieve these goals. Pretty bad stuff when you consider it but as I said, eventually such matters find their way to the light of day. In fact, some of my former childhood bullies were even rewarded as a result of my association with this fact as I'd been considered not a victim of bullying, but on the criminal side of things. Perhaps one reason why there's little safety in any extreme, good or bad because when the polarity reverses, one can easily go from being regarded as the opposite of their own truth and reality. So the good become regarded as the bad, and the bad become regarded as the good even though the concept of good and bad can also be laden with stigma and cliché. Still, its horrible to have made beneficial efforts which then become redefined as detrimental efforts within any such ideology that practices reversals of polarity. One often ends up relentlessly chasing consistency with their own past (unless it would be detrimental to them) in order to hang onto it rather than it ending up to the credit of someone else.

When you chase consistency for such purposes, you tend not to be thinking or conscious but rather behave more automatically, which is the absence of consciousness. So I'd advise anyone caught up in that trap, not to fall for it lest you give up your own consciousness in trade for automatic behavior. The kind of people who profit or benefit from such identity theft will eventually get found out as well, or will remain stagnantly in place for much of their life likely not progressing as conscious beings. Perhaps better to pity them rather than to wish them ill.

So between 2004 and now, much of what I'd produced was up for grabs by people of this ilk, who had given me someone else's identity or regarded me as being part of some criminal conspiracy despite the fact that I'm not and that I certainly have no profited from as such. After all, since that time I'd pretty much lived impoverished and homeless while a group of people attempted to erase or even hide my existence while they stole everything that I owned and produced from my person. Keep in mind that I'm not a particularly religious person and in 2007 I'd actually become a Buddhist and Taoist, dropping Catholicism altogether. So I'm not one much for the story of the Book of Job or any other story of redemption, which are often used as allegories by criminal gangs to imply that if you keep your mouth shut during the worst of times, you'll be rewarded with riches and have your old life back and more. So naturally I believe that some people knew that I'd be up for something of that nature and attempted to steal my identity so they instead could reap the reward that would come as a result of my holding my tongue for this long about these matters. Pretty sleezy when you think about it but as I said, I don't wish them ill but rather I pity them in their ignorance and lack of morale compass. Despite the fact that I do not believe in heaven or hell, I do regard that for such people, becoming stagnated in their own schemes to take from others in such a way and getting nowhere must be kind of hellish in itself. Regardless of the fact that since 2004, as a result of these matters I've not been able to recover and live a normal life as everyone else seems to have the right, to be free of harassment and social abuse, identity theft and what not, I still have managed to progress much farther than I ever have in ways that have little or nothing to do with the material aspects of life. Perhaps that's the real treasure and one that cannot be taken, for it cannot be taught or taken but rather it must be lived.

So to end this post, I'd like to say that recently I filed for my 2001 tax return, hoping to get a little bit of what I'd paid in taxes during that time back as a means to get a little bit ahead now, seeing as between then and now most of my paperwork had been stolen from me during my time homeless along with my identification (three times), and many other belongings related to my own identity and person from that time. If I should receive a return, I'm going to accept that money because I do not believe it to be a wrong. I rendered services to a company for which I am entitled compensation. I followed the laws of my country and city and delivered to the best of my skills, training and ability for my employer. Given the fact of the price and total cost of that situation upon my life, I believe that is a small compensation for what I've endured, but that in no way makes it alright nor is that debt owed to me paid in any shape or form. Nor do I regard any of the people along the way who exploited the situation to take from me by these means off the hook. I'm not a vengeful person at all but I have a feeling that what had been exacted from me will come back in other ways, and perhaps those who've taken from me during that time will likely pay for it in ways they can't even begin to imagine. Once again, I pity them for their own lack of regard for others and their poor choices. My statements aren't really for an audience and the seeking of approval of others nor are they sharpened words. They're just a bit of an interesting reality and explanation for my on and off absence here on this site. Some of the people involved in this nonsense believe me to be possessed or even controlled by other people which I'd say is complete nonsense and their own delusion.

One last thing is that I support a basic income and even recently signed to support that platform in the upcoming provincial vote. First of all, no I am not a freeloader as I do believe in work and making effort towards a better world. Unfortunately there are situations in modern society where some people who fall victim to social abuse are unable to support themselves and this is through no fault of their own. I have personal experience in that matter as explained above and I do not say the opposite of what I mean. I'm a big opposer of polarity reversals where it relates to human language and action. Sincerity before polarity is my motto. If not subject to constant social abuse and illegal spying by people in my community, I'd be earning an income right now and likely very active in a variety of ways. Instead because of the activities of abusive ideologies or just because of my association with what I've described above, I am denied that basic right to take part in society and be regarded as being my own self. Some people believe that you are more whose secrets you keep, that you are yourself which once again I believe is nonsense. I'm not a member of any ideology that operates on such a belief. So when people are subject to constant social abuse they cannot earn a living because their rights are being denied by people who'll likely never suffer the consequences of their abuse in this regard. Those people believe that responding to such abuse is an indication that the abuse victim is more someone else than they are themselves, so this whole ideology is basically an identity theft scam. Some members of this ideology would even believe that what I am remembering here is actually from someone else's life which once again is nonsense. It is my own experiences and history being denied me by an abusive social cult. So given that, I believe that having done nothing worthy of being denied my right to play a part in society like everyone else, that in being denied that right, I should not be cast into the streets or homelessness as a result. I'm sure that the kind of people who've attacked me and abused me over the years for the motives I've described in the post above would likely try to find every justification for doing so that they could, and implying me to be a freeloader would certainly be one of them.

I can only assure people that I'm not and I'm not a member of any ideology that would penalize me for protesting this sort of treatment, or that sorts people out by the symbolism of colours in order to mistreat them (a violation of our Human Rights Act and Charter Of Rights And Freedoms). As I said earlier, I am not a member of any criminal gang nor any organized crime syndicate and never have been. I'm not a pedophile or responsible for any heinous activities which would likely draw such ire from others. While not subject to social abuse I've worked throughout most of my life. I'm also not a member of any love/hate ideology of blood and fire based ideology that competes to apply the wrong doing of one person to another person's life based upon love/hate or blood/fire or any other similar ideology. Take responsibility for your own words and actions. So while I strongly support a basic income, I do not believe in freeloading. I have a feeling that many of the people who conduct such abuse are freeloaders themselves and likely make little effort to contribute to the whole or the betterment of the world. After living homeless for 8 years from 2004 until 2012, and working for nearly six of those years, I don't want to lose my living space because I am abused by such an ideology who prevent me from earning a living while they often take from me what I achieve or accomplish to give to the credit of their cult members. In my building of residence, its quite an criminal active gang as it sometimes is in my community. I'm not a Freemason, Rosicrucian, Gnostic, Scientologist nor a member of Prince Hall with all due respect, but I fail to see why anyone would be socially abused by a group of people for being a member. I am not a "King" at all either (whatever that means) and as I said, I don't believe in heaven or hell. I'm not a member of Christianity at all. Nor am I Muslim. I'm not a Catholic either. I'm a Buddhist and Taoist and I don't say the opposite of what I mean. I'm not a member of any blood centric gang or ideology either.

Quite often the members of this abusive ideology try to make it a game of tricking me into contradicting something I said earlier because they believe that implies that I was not myself when I contradicted myself. So quite often people will attempt to play me between those two extremes likely to make me appear inconsistent. The ideology themselves symbolize this with colours and I believe that they do this as a means to make their victims appear inconsistent and mentally ill. That's certainly the case with myself where I live in a particularly cruel community that conducts this sort of activity. Cruel does not mean nice nor does nice mean cruel. That's one way the cult attempts to get away with social abuse. By reversing the context of anything to its diametrical opposite. For some reason today this gang and cult seems to be very abusive once again, likely in order to discredit me for the last post. Often, the members of this cult attempt to swap my identity with Tom Cruise's or other celebrities for whatever reason. I'm dead serious, like they're obsessed with doing this despite the fact that I am clearly not a celebrity at all nor do I have lots of money.

The cult ideology does so often because of the duality of roles played by some celebrities. For instance with what I revealed above about the Lufthansa heist and the money from the robbery allegedly going to funding a portion of a film project in which I was employed, the cult members might try to say that I'm Matt Damon or Leonardo DiCaprio as bizarre as that sounds. It would work like this: the cult members would imply that I'm Matt Damon and in one sense, I'd be like Bourne from the Bourne movie series, because I'd in real life collaborated with the Federal Police and was somehow let down into homelessness and the shelter system (though it wasn't the fault of the Federal Police). So they would paint me as being like a rogue secret agent like the Bourne films for one group of people and one side of my story. Then they might take another Matt Damon movie and claim that I was more like that character rather than Bourne. For example, they might use the movie The Talented Mr. Ripley, in which a scammer kills a wealthy person and takes over their identity. Or they might use the movie The Departed, in which Matt Damon plays a corrupt undercover Officer who compromises a criminal investigation into organized crime, betraying another undercover Officer (Leonardo DiCaprio) investigating the same suspects. That situation would resemble what I'd revealed in the truth in the paragraphs above. They'd use that idea to claim that I am taking the identity of a character from a movie and that I'm deluded into thinking that movie is my real life. In that way, if I revealed something truthful that they're trying to keep hidden, they'd have a means of sweeping what I reveal under the carpet. On one hand, I'm the good guy to some people, on the other hand I'm the bad guy to others depending upon which side of the legal fence you are and from whose point of view.

Factor in the symbolism of colours which plays into this whole concept very excessively and in violation of the Human Rights Act and the Charter Of Rights And Freedoms and you have a problem. This isn't conducted by people who make films or the performers, but by a small social gang of people who watch them and use them as weapons against other people. I'd bet they even attempt this to the people who make them. I love movies and entertainment but I'd never dream of using them as weapons to ruin other people. I'd rather learn from them by safely experiencing situations that do allow me to learn about a particular point of view without the associated risk of the experience itself. So nothing I've revealed in the paragraphs above has anything to do with delusion and in fact, I don't have delusional thinking. That's why I've cited (some of) my sources. For this ideology and abusive people, this is about trying to abuse someone to the point where they react in such a way that makes the victim the hate side and someone else the love side. Failing that, they attempt to make that discrimination on the basis of blood. Its that simple, though I'd think that if you stalked and abused someone to the point of a reaction, that would make you the hateful side. Also this cult are against the fact that I'm Caucasian and my love interest is Mandarin Chinese. In fact they go through incredible lengths to hide this, instead trying to imply to others that my love interest is another person of a culture of their choosing because they want that specific culture to be biased above Chinese people, ignoring my wishes completely. Maybe they want people to believe that I'm possessed or being controlled by Prince Harry? I'm not, but I can certainly respect his stance to protecting his love for Meghan Markle and I doubt that the Royal family would object for any other reason than to insure that he did love her. After all, marriage is a big commitment and I'm sure that they want to ensure that it is represented well within their family and presence.

So I've stood my ground for years on the same matter, but with regard to someone Mandarin Chinese. Instead this cult try to imply that I'm possessed or being controlled by someone else who feels the same or a similar way that I do, which once again I can assure you is not the case. I sincerely feel that way. So I am not Terence, Clarence or Jake or anyone else. I'm not Ron Silk, John Penny or Ian. I'm not John Cane. I am not Dwayne Johnson (The Rock). I'm myself, Brian Joseph Johns. My love interest is not Filipino with all due respect to that wonderful culture of people and I've never been married in my life nor had any children just to clarify things.

So for the readers of my stories such as the Butterfly Dragon I: Heroes Of Our Own and A Lady's Prerogative, both of which spawned many different adventures I thank you for your patience. I can only assure you that I am myself, Brian Joseph Johns regardless of whether I have identification on me to prove as much or not or whether I reveal my name or not. There will be more to come, but I need to recharge from the last twenty years. They've been pretty bumpy.

Brian Joseph Johns
http://www.shhhhdigital.com

200 Sherbourne Street Apt. 701
Toronto, Ontario
Canada M5A 3Z5
416 203-0928
fav.inbox@gmail.com

Friday, April 27, 2018

Apologies

Brian Joseph Johns
Hi again. After my outpouring of grief and misery that in and of itself is very valid and much of which I will not recant, I would like to correct something and that is in regard to the Toronto Police Services and my disregard for the critical efforts they made with regard to the Van Attack of Alek Minassian and other investigative efforts they've made in our fine city.

I guess in the midst of such extreme emotions and frustration (certainly not only mine but that of the public as well), I took it upon myself to direct some of what I had to vent towards them unjustly. That does not alleviate the fact that I do have some grievances that need to be addressed, though they are not directed towards the Toronto Police Service or the authorities in general. I have and always have had the most confidence and support of due process and I have and always will defend it and the Canadian way. I believe that some people who are not so supportive or confident in due process may have a hand in manipulating the impression of those who are supportive of the system and due process in attempt to pit them against one another. The Toronto Police Service have done a tremendous job in this investigation and have my complete confidence. My prior statements that were directed towards their effort were unjust and uncalled for especially during such a trying time and I sincerely apologize for any strife I`ve directed their way.

Once again to the victims of this tragedy, I offer my most sincere condolences. Believe me when I say that I want to see a world where this kind of violent attack does not occur or can be prevented in time to prevent tragedy. I believe that through effective communication that goal may be possible.

Brian Joseph Johns
http://www.shhhhdigital.com